| | wow. another year done with, and my college career is officially half over. its been a freaking awesome year, the best one so far. many things have happened, both good and bad, (but mostly good) and i think i've grown a lot. im gonna miss the seniors though  God bless you guys, hope you keep Him number one always.
some lessons i've learned this year/reflections of the past few days:
people change, people move on, stuff happens. it is unfortunate, but change is inevitable, i suppose. i still dont like it, but im learning to live with it. its kinda saddening though, and i dont quite understand the how or why. but i trust its all for the best, and God knows what is to happen, so why should i worry about it?
good prayer is awesome. being in God's presence like that is a tiny taste of heaven. i only wish i had more endurance.
freakin grades. i sincerely wish (and i think i get support on this) that we werent graded on what we learn. i mean, it wouldnt be so bad if we could just pay them to teach us and end it at that, rather than paying them to torture us with homework and quizzes and midterms and finals, and then fail us on top of all that. geez. im reminded of lue-yee's away message on aim, about being a masochist (although, lue, im more likely to call you nerd than masochist  )
group projects suck. a lot. but, like all trials, they can be an opportunity to learn and grow, even though it may not be immediately apparent.
being a leader is hard. it definitely has its ups and downs, but its an interesting and rewarding experience (at least it has been for me, this past year). its really nice to feel like you are making a difference, especially when that difference becomes evident later, and keeps growing. and its also really nice to find dependable people that you can truly count on. thank God for those people, they are a blessing.
the big sib/little sib thing was really fun. of course, i had a pretty "special" little sib and a really cool older sib, for which i am thankful.
studying the hebrew bible (aka our old testament in different order) as a biblical scholar might was an eye-opening experience. it didnt shake my faith at all, just made me question things that seemed contradictory, which is good, because after researching those things, or asking someone more knowledgeable, it always reinforced what i already believed. it was kinda fun, actually, and since it was the old testament, i didnt really have to do the assigned reading to understand what was being talked about in class. i definitely learned a lot though, and it made me appreciate the old testament a lot more.
middle eastern studies was another eye-opener. now i understand islam, the arab-israeli conflict, the oil trade, and zionism, among other things, quite a bit better than i did before. the professor was really funny, and i learned a lot. art history was largely a waste of time, but i guess i did learn something about analyzing art. art 14 was sometimes fun but also somewhat a waste of time, except for stephchensays, ako, kinda learning to throw, and some of the things i made. everyone in that class thinks im morbid. not that they'd be wrong...
God is always working, whether we see it or not. just because it isnt immediate doesnt mean it isnt ever gonna happen. theres only so much you can do, and its no use beating yourself up over what is not under your control. it may be cliche but it is still true: sometimes what we need to do is let go and let God.
sometimes you find things where and when you least expect them, or just after you've given up looking. God has a plan that is much better for us than anything we could come up with by ourselves. He also has quite a sense of humor, as i have witnessed firsthand...
its a huge blessing to be able to be so completely and totally honest with someone. its a truly amazing and wonderful feeling, to still be loved by them, even in spite of your worst failings. its a reflection of the way God loves each of us despite our sin. its a simultaneously sobering and joyful fact. its a blessing i dont deserve at all, but i am thankful  |
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